Health Insurance Help

Times are hard and having health problems can make times even harder, especially if you don't have health insurance to help cover the costs of expensive medical care. Purchasing health insurance through your employer can be very expensive especially if you have a large family and not all jobs offer health insurance either leaving you left out in the cold. What happens if you become sick or your child becomes severely ill? Most health issues can't be waited out until it goes away; you typically need medication and advice from a qualified position.

My family was recently in this same situation. We lost our health insurance because we couldn't afford it any longer. Does this mean we can't take our child to the doctor when he's sick? Do we just ignore it? No, that's not an option.

While doing some research online, I stumbled upon the Healthcare Whisperer. Don't let the name fool you, this company has been a huge help to my family. Their website is filled with valuable information including health insurance help, billing problems, and help for seniors with medicare. They offer a plethora of services and even give you your own health care advocate so that you not left to deal with high medical costs on your own.

Other services the Healthcare Whisperer offers is finding a doctor or hospital in your area, hospice services, and a patient care coordinator. Don't be forced to suffer or let your loved ones suffer; there is help out there for you, you just have to find it!

Bacon Sundae, Anyone?

Ugh, been a crazy few weeks. Kids have been out of school for about 3 weeks now. I spent half of that time down with a bad sinus infection and chest cold. I don't exercise when I have a chest cold or anything that makes breathing difficult. Between those two things, my routine has been way outta wack. I haven't been doing as good as I was. Im not eating as well nor am I exercising as hard. I have been trying to do things with the kids like bike rides or playing wii games that require physical exertion. I just feel...off. I need to kick my ass back into gear because I don't want to ruin what I've done so far and gain it all back. Im tired of this being such a struggle. I just want to be able to relax. Oh, and did I mention that my internet is off at the moment and Im typing this on my phone? Mm yeah, so, my thumbs are beginning to hurt. It's like texting a book, lol.

Have you heard about the bacon sundae some restaurants are offering? Burger King is the biggest chain to add it to their menu. I like bacon and I like ice cream. Together? Not so much. What does this say about how FAT America has become? I think it's gross. What do you think?

They're All Gonna Laugh At You!!

I've decided that I'm only going to weigh myself at the end of each month. That way I won't get discouraged if I don't lose anything each week.. I like to notice weight loss by my clothing instead of numbers on a scale anyway. In fact, it's been warmer out this past week and I've noticed that all of my capris are practically falling off of me, which is good, but I don't have the money to go buy new capris! They are baggy and saggy on me, too and don't look too good on me. *sigh* Ah well, I still won't complain though.

I've been going out of my comfort zone and going for walks in the mornings. That sounds kinda odd saying that I'm going out of my comfort zone to go for a walk but it's true. I think it all stems back to when I was younger when people would yell fat comments at me or look at me and laugh. I don't like to do anything by myself. I used to not even want to go to the store by myself but I've gotten over that. Whenever I'm alone in public, I feel like everyone is staring at me and laughing even though, in reality, I know most people are not even paying attention to me and it's just my paranoia. I'm ok going for walks with my kids but this is the first time I've ever gone for a walk completely by myself. No, seriously! Apart from walking to friends' house when I was a kid. We just moved to this town almost a year ago. It's a small town and everyone seems to be pretty friendly; the type of town where people wave at you while they drive by. I just turn on my iPod and walk! I love going in the mornings when the day is brand new with the fresh air, and most people are at work so it's quiet out and not many cars. My only problem is NOT singing along with the iPod. I have a bunch of 80s songs on it and when I listen to it at home I usually sing at the top of my lungs but I can't do that in public, haha. I've been feeling great, too after going for these walks. I feel energized, my legs feel great, the fresh air feels great, I love it. At the end of next week, the kids will be done with school (ugh) so I told them that they are going to start walking with me, too. They don't mind that at all though especially if  we walk to the park and I let them play for awhile... it gets us all some exercise and fresh air. If I can just keep up with it, I think I'll do great!!

I just have to get myself over this paranoia or whatever you want to call it that I have. Always thinking that people are staring and laughing. It's like some deep seeded fear that has to be from my younger years. I have to step out of my comfort zone and put myself out there and eventually I will sincerely realize that no one is staring at me or laughing at me and if they ARE laughing at me, they are idiots that I don't give a crap about anyway.

Come On Be Happy!

This conversation happened today on my Facebook page. I almost wanted to laugh when I read that first response. It must be nice to be able to control your own mood because I sure as Hell can't. The person who responded to my post didn't respond back after my other comment. I really get annoyed with the happy go lucky people who think it's so easy to just be happy. Maybe I'm not so much annoyed with them as I am jealous? I mean, I love the feeling of being happy. I wish I could be happy every day and if I could, I would. It's not that simple for anyone who is suffering from any kind of mood disorder. I hate my bad days when I'm angry and hating everyone and everything around me or the depressed days where all I can do is cry about every. single. thing. Life just isn't that simple and yeah I had to roll my eyes at the first response to my post. It is someone from my college that doesn't know much about me at all. No one would choose to be in a bad mood and loathe their own existence, no one. I wish people would think before they open their mouth (or type) because life isn't always as simple for everyone as it may be for you. I also can't control how I respond to someone. Certain things just trigger me and either piss me off or make me cry. It's not something I can help or control nor is it something that someone who has never suffered from something like this will ever understand.

The Scales Don't Lie

I finally faced the scales today. I lost 3 lbs. I should be happy about it.. and I'm glad that I didn't gain, but that's 3 lbs in a month. That's not enough! I guess I'm going to have to really get serious and eat better on the weekends. I do good throughout the week but the weekends are bad. Everything is out of whack on the weekends. Kids are home and we always seem to have something to do or are on the go and I have a hard time making good food choices especially when it comes to eating out at restaurants. They just have so much good bad food!! I guess I gotta face it though if I want to see the scales go down faster. I bust my ass 5 days a week working out, but the calories on the weekends are going to slow everything down. Fridays are still my "free day" (and it's today, yay!) but the rest of the weekend I have to be good. I was kind of worried that the scale would go UP, just because I haven't really noticed my clothing being looser, so I'm still happy to see a decline in the number.

Food should not be my best friend, but who is? To be completely honest, I don't have anyone except for my mother. My husband is not there for me any more. My friends have just kind of blown me off (I should be used to that). I really have no one to lean on or talk to. It's depressing which only makes my depression worse! My mom and I are very close and she's trying to lose weight, too.. but I need people my own age in my life, too. Plus, my mom lives 40 minutes away so I only see her usually once on the weekends. I don't have anyone in this town to do things with or even go for walks with, apart from the kids. Some days I just feel like my life really sucks. I'm not happy with how thing are in my life right now and I have to figure out how to change things. I don't want to live like this forever but I know it's not going to change unless I do something about it.

OH, I just had to share this. So a friend of mine made a comment on his Facebook page about "nasty fat bitches".. so I left a comment just saying, "WTF".. then he IM'd me and tried explaining what he was meaning. In this amusing conversation, he said, "I'm not meaning the sweet larger girls that I know and I hope you don't think it was meant towards you". I understand he was trying to be nice but damn, "sweet larger girls".. THANKS SO MUCH, buddy!!!!

Mmmm, bacon.